Weeks of no communication. Then suddenly, a random text arrives filled with concern and care from the same person who only reached out to you because they’re done with whatever distracted them from you in the first place.It’s all a game, don’t play yourself.
Why was it so hard for me to realize that he was toxic in my life? Was it because I gave him the title boyfriend I then denied the fact that he could actually cause me harm?
I don’t know when or how he slowly crept into my life, but All I know is that he was was in every hour of my day and every second of my thoughts. I was losing myself. It was all a game but I seemed to get so lost in his smile. It was all a game but I seemed to get lost in his touch.
One of the most toxic things I could have ever done was ignore the bad in someone because I loved them.Trust me when I say it’s not hard to fall in love with someone. I showed him all the mixed parts of my soul and he was able to understand every darkest corner of my mind. He drained me of my self worth, and injected pain into my veins. It was the worst feeling you know? Knowing you are only temporary to someone. I thought I lost him, but to be honest, he was never really mine. you don’t know how deeply intertwined you are with someone until you try to walk away from them. And It was hard for me to walk away from him.
When they say love is blinding it isn’t just a myth.
Faking a smile was so much easier than explaining why i sad. He hurt me. Mentally. Physically. My best friends and even my own mother didn’t understand what i was going through at the time, but despite the odds everyone told me to leave long before the matter became worst. Deep down I already knew the truth and knew what I had to do. Let go.Walk away. Isn’t it unfortunate, how we squander such a great amount of time on specific individuals, and by the day’s end they demonstrate that they weren’t even notable of a second of our efforts. mistakes are intended to be learnt from, not rehashed.
A mistake repeated more than once is a decision. It’s not how we commit our errors, but rather it’s the way we revise them that define us. After 2 years of swimming in a toxic relationship, I was able to build up the courage to walk away. Trust me, is was hard, but it made me strong. People may not always tell you how they feel about you, but they will always show you. Pay attention. The best feeling comes when you realize you’re perfectly happy without the person you thought you needed the most.
In all of our ventures through life, everybody has experienced issues and difficulties that may have repressed achievement and decelerated improvement. There are a few people that rose above their challenges and rushed to adapt to them, even some that flourished regardless of them. While it took me some time, I in the long run over came mine.